just as soon as i am on top of this whole sobriety thing.. I feel 4 pm come on and some big stuff happening in the next few days and need a drink. my heart is broken over these crazy fucking thoughts.. I am tired and fuzzy and kinda dizzy and feeling funny.. i am resisting.. but with such easy access and no one in my face saying no.. I wont do it.. I simply wont.. but shit.. why now??
not not not going to do it..