I am holding on.. Here, by a thread.. But my thread is strong and powerful.. It is connected to three small precious souls.. Souls I created.. I am not about to entwine my sick and twisty soul upon theyre hearts.. I am rising up.. I am learning each step I make to what Is my new world is supposed to be like.I am here I may have hit the bricks time and time again, but I am not done with this submersion into my new reality. I have the power I hold the key Strict planning, Staying sober, getting thru the holidays.. These are attainable.. I can be this girl… back to square one, but its back to reality..