Funny, I seem to only blog when I am looking for answers.. When I am looking for peace, sobriety.. I am not sure what I am doing. I need sleep.. I need sunshine.. I need a fucking vacation… I need to feel loved.. Maybe I want these things what I truly need Is the key to my sobriety. What the fuck is holding me from it?
Things I have in order.
Sponsor who loves me no matter what..
People in the program that I can call anytime.
Sober cyber support.
Every freaking sobriety book from AA to Zen..
Family who supports me (though very awkwardly)
A list of meds that are supposed to help with, cravings, anxiety, depression..
Am I over thinking everything? Maybe it shouldn’t be so fucking hard and I’m over doing every thing.. Today I am sober. Today I am taking it very easy on myself. I believe this is an illness I have and if it were anyone else I’d say, “love yourself today.. Hydrate, recover, rest” so that’s that for now.