The have been so many year of my life chasing something or someone.. now at 38 I can see that it was not a waste , but ground work to the woman I Am and always knew exsisited. I would tell that lonely little girl chasing boys, and the next high that you are 100% worthy of exactly what is good and right.. not some bullshit hangover or asshole one night stand or fake picture of what someone made you feel. No you get to choose and you deserve it all.
Confidence and Sobriety and love, lust, health, brains, a career you love.. you get it all because you deserve it.
Maybe slowly maybe quickly.. no matter it starts within..