Lex, You Glorious Wicked Tarnished Soul… 


So here you sit all tarnished and achey with burns bumps and bruises…  Your soul is on fire ready for what ever may happen next unlike you 5 or so months ago.. It was that you that was letting go, giving up on who you always “wished” and chased.. Funny your weak bones had you floating, twirling and faking reality.. That was someone who needed love and light, yet you fed her darkness and hate.. No matter.. Today all you can do is acknowledge her.. Love her for all the fragility and missed opportunity. You mustn’t hang in to her anymore.. Love her send her off with a kiss and empathy. No more no less…  She didn’t know any better … 

You lucked out dear one.. You got to feel this from every angle. In the utter throws of lies and addiction . To the adventure of life and light.. Look at you all confident and filling your empty cup with self love instead of vodka and pills.. look. You were here this whole time. Funny, beautiful. Brilliant.  Brave enough to show those daughters of yours. Your no fucking coward. You caught wind of what it could be like and you try over and over to make it work for you.. This is your path and no one else’s.. you get to plan and pine over what is good and real instead of waiting for someone to tell you how to move.. you get to make moves freely..  

I will never know why you never felt ok until today. I’m not sure who told you your different. You are different but it’s not a fucking bad thing.. You are perfection flawed inside and out.. A masterpiece of self hate and joy and beauty.. You my love, are doing this really fucking hard thing Which is life.. Life on life’s terms.. Your a brilliant sober unicorn.  You thought this only ever existed in stuff of dreams.. Now dreams are of which you get to wake from or make come true.. It’s up to you now brave warrior.. Your done hiding behind a bottle and a party.. It is you real raw gorgeous and gutsy..

Lovely I love you

Xo

Lex

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3 thoughts on “Lex, You Glorious Wicked Tarnished Soul… 

  1. Hello,
    Your last para deserves to be made into a billboard. Love love love!
    I hadn’t fancied myself as a sober unicorn until this point, so thank you for this. But here on in, I’ll rock that badge!
    Giving up booze has similarities with a unicorn – it’s rare, few believe in it but when you see it, it’s a beautiful thing.
    Yours faithfully,
    Sober Unicorn from New Zealand 🦄🦄🦄🦄🦄

  2. Well I was thinking today about it.. How in the turmoil and shit this would never have seemed doable. Like a magical creature came out and here we are sober and doing it!
    Xo

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