So here in the midwestern state I live the weather is so unpredictable and the winter has been long and grey.. Today is the first time I can remember warm sunshine and green things popping up everywhere. I woke up too early, made coffee, made the kids clean there rooms, made breakfast and made myself go to a meeting… The good definitely outweighs the bad here, but I’m fuckimg antsy.. I was just walking around the yard and the sight of an old bottle top had me drooling for Carona. I decided on more coffee instead and a cig and a bit of writing.. I was so overwhelmed with the thought of breaking my sober spell I had to stop in my tracks.. It is a for sure reminder that I am freshly sober and need to still make sure I’m doing what is righ in front of me.. No more no less..
I am so grateful for this new way of thinking that tears came to my eyes..
I’m so grateful I went to the meeting and plugged into the power of other sober sisters..
I’m so grateful for the Midwest sunshine and my lilac buds..
I’m so grateful I can be antsy and be gentle with myself all at once..
I’m so grateful I don’t need to drink today…