The slogans and sayings around the tables of AA sometimes just straight up piss me off or make no sense to me. Restless irritable and discontent. I’ve heard it over and over in meetings. I never once connected. .
Today it’s on repeat over and over in my head.. Must. Pull. Out. Tools.. getting out of my head seems impossible today.. I know sobriety is not all pink clouds and orgasims.. I understand completely that life sucks at times.. Nothing is perfect.. I certainly am not perfect. So I’ll sit.. breathe and meditate a bit..
I’m just unhappy. No matter I won’t drink.. I’m allowed to be sad…